(Craig David album title)
Storytime, everyone!
Once upon a time, 3 stubborn Christian priests were asked to stop being Christian, or get fucking murdered. They, being religious zealots, decided they would rather die than "renounce" their religion, though they could have just lied and gone on preaching and shit. So, they get fucking murdered, and considering the time period, AD 197 to AD 269, you can bet your ass they died pretty horrible deaths, most likely crucified considering they were offed by Romans, who became famous for doing this to some guy named, oh, Jesus Christ. Because other religious wackjobs love the idea someone who would face death instead of say they're not Christian, they decided these 3 martyrs were special and made them saints. So these 3 dead guys who were nailed to wood and tortured to death, are now saints and saints get a feast day to celebrate them.
And so Valentine's Day was born. Seriously. SERIOUSLY.
But now it is nothing more than commercialized affection and a guilt trip that you have to get someone you love something special and nice...more specifically, girls guilt trip guys into dinner, flowers and candy while the guy is lucky to get a hand job.
I'm really disgusted by Valentine's Day. You can't go into a store without seeing piles and aisles full of red, pink and white candy, cards, teddy bears, whatever crap they're trying to sell you because if you don't buy it the person/people you care about aren't TRULY special to you. All because you won't shell out a few bucks for flowers which are gonna die. Or chocolates usually requested by the same people who resolved to eat better and be healthier for their New Year's resolution and/or girls who are going complain their ass is fat in about 3 days when they've inhaled a 10 pound box of chocolate whatever. Or a teddy bear that'll wind up in the closet in about a week.
All the people who care about me in my life don't have to buy me cheap crap to show it. I already know. Their gift to me is everything they bring to my life everyday. Anyone who expects something MORE on V Day doesn't care quite as much about their important people as they'd have you believe. How many boyfriends are getting guilt tripped into spending a bunch of money on a girl, and she'd get mad if he didn't? It's not a gift, she fucking EXPECTS it. Are you fucking serious? Your relationship is off to a fine start if there's pressure and expectations to spend piles of money on "important" days. She's basically saying "you're great and all, but you're not enough for me on certain days so you need to compensate with dinner/flowers/candy/jewelry/other gifts". Guys can't hit girls, but those girls need some sense knocked into them. (I'm for hire)
Even better is when guys get guilt tripped AFTERWARDS because one of her friend's boyfriend went all out and her gift was elaborate and expensive. She's hinting that next year you need to do better because she wants to play the one up game and/or she thinks you don't love her enough to go through the trouble/expense. This is when you let her know that won't be your problem next year because you're through with her gold digger ass, and turn around and walk.
Happy Singles Awareness Day! I'm single, I'm aware, and I'm definitely happy I don't need this shit...hell I bet the singles are the happiest ones on V Day. We're all a few hundred bucks richer than a lot of others. Fuck commercialized affection and fuck people who think it means something and REALLY fuck people who want and expect it.
Though I'm all for bringing back nailing people to wood to celebrate Valentine's Day. Bet you a lot of people would never celebrate it again:
Her: "What are we doing for Valentine's Day? Going to dinner?"
Him: "No, we're going to celebrate the original meaning and nail your ass to plywood in the backyard."
Love is made of words and laughter, not chocolate and some plush doll made in China.
~A.
To speak about UNM quickly, between basketball games, being a part of section 26 (so much fun) friends both student and professor, involvement on campus...I feel I am not a UNM student. I am a LOBO to the core. I'm serious. Some part of me will always be a Lobo, and they'll always be my b-ball team...even when they suck. But this year they don't and the Heels do and fuck yeah that makes me happy. :P Top b-ball program my ASS. Anyways, back on topic...I feel like a part of here. But I'm academically MISERABLE here. I'm not even studying the field I'd like to be, I don't feel like I'm being pushed or challenged and I REALLY don't feel like I know all the shit I really should. A decent basketball team and a social life won't make me a good researcher, knowing my shit will. When I first was thinking I want the fuck out of here, I didn't give a shit about what I left behind, I just wanted to go. Now it's not so easy. Even if I get into where I want to go...it's not going to be an easy choice. The fact I would even hesitate to leave UNM to be better prepared is conflicting. This was supposed to be an easy no brainer. = /
I've said before I'm listening to music constantly. Mostly because I don't have to listen to people. My headphones come in handy on campus because there's always some group or another handing out fliers and shit for one cause or another. I don't hear them. Great for people out there supporting a cause, but handing me and a bunch of other college student fliers that will wind up on the ground or in the trash isn't making a difference, it's invading personal space and making a mess. But I've said a million times I need music. And I do.
I use it to wake up in the morning, I don't drink coffee and green tea doesn't have much caffeine, and some of what I drink has basically none at all. So, I use music to get myself ready to go do whatever I gotta do which usually involves putting up with UNM and its denizens of dumb. But specifically in the morning, while eating breakfast, taking a shower, getting dressed, NOT in my car but always on the bus ride to school and walking to my first class I listen to very specific music. I am about to show my gamer nerd here but...
I listen to video game music. In particular the boss battle music and heroes' themes from RPGs (Role Playing Games). See, something I love about console RPGs is they have these fantastic orchestrated songs that they use for when the heroes win and during important fights. They're always really intense and either get you in a fight kinda mood, or they're a "here comes the heroes" type of march. It's all from games I've played, so I remember the intense ass boss battles and how you get so ticked off cause that motherfucker just killed one of your friends and you're gonna beat his ass to bits. Fuck yeah! I've always done things a little differently. ;)
The hero themes are always from when shit looks bleak, the good guys look beaten...but something changes and it's time to go! They're off to save the world!
You know what, me too. :)
~A.