Primordial Chaos

I tend to pull my blog titles from songs I like. They tend to strangely apply to me too, so it works.

Just finished my first week of summer classes, and I'm REALLY enjoying it. I've got great teachers and TAs, and they are really making the classes fun. They joke and make the classes interesting, which definitely wasn't my experience in the Spring for most of my classes, Honors and Psych of Learning and Memory were the only exceptions. True to my nature, I was all excited the first day of classes and didn't sleep well. My mom told me I used to cry when school went on break. I do get pretty excited about school. I'm already excited about Fall, I have a great schedule, classes I'm really looking forward to, and I feel pretty settled in at UNM.

So, everyone who transfers in has to spend a semester in the general college (the freshman spend a year), called University College. I've nicknamed it Purgatory College, one because it's just a holding tank until I could transfer into the College of Arts and Sciences, two because I had the worst experience there. Basically I got all kinds of bad advisement, which left me with a Spring schedule with a bunch of crap I didn't need and just basically set me back a bit. However, I'm now officially under Arts and Sciences and both of my advisers are super awesome, they helped me cleaned up the mess Purgatory College left me in, and got me straightened out and on the right track for both of my degrees.

I'm still officially chasing both a BS in Psychology with a minor in Computer Science, and a BA in English-Creative Writing. That may change though. I'm mulling over transferring schools once I hit junior status, and the schools I am looking at don't allow dual degrees. So, if forced to choose, I'd stick with the BS in Psych or BS in Cognitive Science, or a minor in Cognitive Science if it's offered. Depending on the requirements, Computer Science is also an option for a minor. Now, nothing is set in stone whatsoever, but I'm giving it heavy thought, my summer and fall schedule are actually set for me to meet pre-requisites for the schools I'm looking at, and my Spring schedule will be the same. Those classes also meet requirements for my degree at UNM in case I don't transfer, but I'm pretty unhappy at UNM and the strength of their Psych program, along with all the other bullshit they've dragged me through, the screw ups of THEIRS I've spent hours correcting, the money I've wasted on credits I didn't need...you get the idea.

I guess I expect a lot from my college experience and the rigor of my academic program. I NEED a lot, I think. I really need to be challenged and I need to be forced to really work at what I'm doing. I'm happiest that way. I mean, UNM is a decent school, but they're definitely aiming for a common denominator that's not really on my level. I'm trying to get involved in some undergraduate research for the fall in the Psych department, but juniors and seniors get priority apparently. I'm JUST shy of having enough credits to be a junior, but we'll see how it goes.

So, I've mentioned this everywhere else and to just about everyone, but I'll mention it here too and give a little background. I'll try and quickly sum up the story. So, my best friend Warren and I met end of March last year, and we got along like a house on fire. I could never explain it, but we have a very VERY strong connection, and we bonded as best friends pretty quick. The more we got to know each other, the more we realized that we are exceptionally alike in most ways, in fact the differences we do have are really minor in the grand scheme of things. (We still fight over them though, his personality is just as strong as mine.) At some point we realized we're not a part of each other, but in a lot of ways, he is me and I am him, we truly are that much alike. So, we fell for each other, and that's where things are, he's my best friend, but also more, and we adore the crap out of each other. I'm all blushing even writing this! I truly treasure my relationship with him, in all of its complexities and nuances. He's older than me (32), taller than me (6'1"), he's working on his PhD, and he's just as smart as I am. So between us having matching intellects and equally strong personalities, when we match wits, it's just an impressive show of brain power. We keep each other on our toes, and I like that. We've both discussed how we've always wanted an equal, and we truly do have that in each other. Of course, the flip side is when we butt heads, it can get kind of tense. We've always had this amazing ability after a spat to reset back to where we were and understand the other person's perspective with no hard feelings or resentment, and that's so important. Of course, we both dislike arguing with each other because it does get so intense, so we try to avoid it. We prefer the times where we just get all silly and giggly when talking to each other. We both love to laugh and we make each other laugh. One night we spent 20 minutes on the phone, not saying a word, just laughing our asses off. I don't even remember what the hell we were laughing at, but we were all the way to goofy. I was just sitting here thinking, and I realized I only remember what one fight of ours was about, hell, the one we got into a few days ago I don't even remember what it was about. The only reason I even remember this one is because it was the beginning of a rough 5 weeks for both of us. Doesn't matter though, we got past that, and it really makes all of our little fights seem so minor. It's more important to us to have the other person in our lives instead of being right and that person being mad at us, shutting us out, or even ending the relationship. I also think we both realize when we fight, we're usually both in the wrong. It's just such a happy and healthy relationship, I treasure it immensely and he makes me wonderfully happy. I even changed my Facebook status to "In a Relationship". :P (www.facebook.com/primordialchaos is my page)

So, Van Hunt, easily one of my top 5 favorite musicians, just released an album that is really good, I can't stop listening to it. It's a CD of songs he did but didn't release, and a couple of reworks of songs that were released. You can buy it at www.vanhunt.com, it's 7.99 for the mp3 download, and it comes with all the images like a regular CD would in case you want to make your own case for it, and it comes with a pdf file with the stories behind the songs. His record company screwed him over a few different ways, so he's releasing this on his own, so I'd prefer if you do like his stuff to buy it. You can preview the album on his website and his myspace, www.myspace.com/vanhunt. He's one of those people who isn't above his fans, he himself posts to his myspace blog, it's not some computer or record company intern. He has 3 other albums, Van Hunt, On The Jungle Floor, and Popular. Popular was NOT commercially released, but I know you can track it down online, the others were commercially released, but you can also track them down online. Just check him out, and if you like what you hear, support him. He also has an album coming out in September I'm excited about. (On that same note, Jamiroquai is supposed to be releasing an album this summer or fall, at the worst definitely this year. I'm excited about that too.)

4 weeks exactly until my birthday. I'm kind of not looking forward to this birthday because it means I'm on my downhill slide to 30, even though I'm only turning 26. Yeah, the idea of me being 30 kind of freaks me out. However, I am kind of a big kid, always playful and curious, so it's all in how you feel or act. Life is to be explored and enjoyed, and you can do that at any age.

I have homework to do and a bathroom to clean, so I'll post again sometime....hopefully soon. :)

~A.