Wonderwall by Oasis. I've been playing it A LOT on my guitar lately, and me and my bro have been singing it. He was actually the one who exposed me to Wonderwall the first time.
Life is complex, but you don't need me to tell you that. I've made a few REALLY hard decisions lately, and even though they are upsetting in the short term...they are best in the long term. I'm admittedly emotionally sensitive in the first place, and tend to feel the extremes of emotions and be consumed by them. This is what I regard as my greatest flaw, actually. So I am trying to keep my focus to the future right now so I can see the positive. It's not easy.
For one, in vague reference for certain reasons, I'm losing a huge part of my day to day life. It was the most difficult decision to make, oh, ever. The close friends I've mentioned it to wonder why I'm not excited about a little more freedom. 1) I never go out in the first place, that's not going to change 2) I have some very important goals I'm busting my ass for and my time is invested in that. I am focused straight ahead to my goals and nothing else.
So another hard decision, on my lists of schools I wanted to get into, UCSD was one of them. However, since California and the UC system are fucking imploding, I made the decision to X it off my list. It was not easy since they have the top cognitive science program in the country, which is, sorta, my area of study. After the tuition hikes and student protests...I had some real concerns about the school.
That being said, I don't exactly have a solid plan B. My remaining back up schools are great schools for what I want...but...they're not REALLY what I want, you know? I could waltz into my safety schools and crap on the mascot as my application and get in. I far exceed their requirements. They don't even make mine. So I'm not sure what I'm exactly going to do...right now I should focus on ending THIS semester on top of my shit. I have all my official transcripts and stuff in manila envelopes with no "To" address on them, so they could really go anywhere. Which means so could I. Maybe over Thanksgiving I'll re-evaluate some schools, see if I can make a Plan B...C...D...just in case. I'll be overprepared, sure, but better than being caught off guard. Ijust don't know...*sigh*
Still enjoying time with my bro, today we've been playing Contra Rebirth, and we beat it on hard. That unlocked NIGHTMARE difficulty. Hard was a fucking nightmare, we were just BARELY getting through the levels. I'm afraid of how it can get much worse, cause that was intense. Me and Jess had a BLAST though.
All day, all you hear in the house is our two Droids going off for one reason or another. It's pretty funny. My bro loves his phone, keeps going on and on about it. I'm happy too cause it's something we've bonded over, trying to help each other learn something on the damned things, trading apps, music, etc.
My bro comes back permanently the weekend of December 19th...I'll be glad to have him around. Though, I gotta stop watching really terrible movies with him. My bro will watch ANY movie, and this isn't always a good thing. At least he's got me watching movies though. :P
~A.
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