So I have 4 blogs I'm neglecting, which sucks but I promise once my spring semester is officially over I'll be better about it. My one and only final is on Tuesday, not Thursday like I thought, and even though I have summer classes and a move to work on after that, I won't be as constrained on time. Right now though, since until last night I thought my final was on Thursday, I've been studying pretty hard. I'm fucking terrible at keeping my shit together when I feel as overwhelmed as I do, so I'm making I am on point all the way around. Plus I've had to do A LOT of calling UNC and arguing with UNM to make sure this transfer goes smoothly, but I'm on top of my game. At least school-wise.
I have 2 stitches in my head as of late yesterday evening. Of course there's a story, they're not there for aesthetics. When I was dealing with the seizures and getting EEGs a few weeks ago, what they do is fill the electrodes with a salt solution and scrape your scalp at the same time to get a good connection. I was told the device doesn't break the skin but hurts, and that was the case. HOWEVER, it broke off a few of my hairs really short and, of course, they eventually became ingrown and infected, creating an abscess. So they had to lance it, drain it, and put me on antibiotics. Fantastic. What this also means, and I seriously cried for hours, is my wonderful healthy, silky, curly ass hair I'd meticulously been caring for got SHAVED OFF. Now, usually I don't give a shit how much hair I do or do not have. But I'd put so much effort into learning how to properly care for and manage my curls so that I could grow them out that this is basically devastating and it's adding to the dark cloud of depression hanging over me. So I made two decisions to try and find some silver lining. 1) I demanded to take the hair they cut off, and I donated it to this group who is using hair clippings to help clean up the oil spill in the gulf. God knows my hair will soak up some oil, so figured it was a contribution to the cause. 2) Going to completely redo my hair blog, and I guess it'll be easy to measure growth since I have no god damn hair, and I'll be starting with hair that is completely unmanipulated (part of my former hair was lightly relaxed to make my curls more manageable) so I'll have a better/more accurate gauge of my hair progress. Minor things, but they're keeping me from constantly crying over the loss of my trademark curly lion's mane.
So I found an apartment complex I'd like to move into, then I found another one today I also like. I don't have a move in date yet, and I should probably figure that out sooner rather than later. I'm eying mid-July, like the week of my b-day since it's a Sunday, preferably in the middle of the week just because of traffic and such on the weekends. That'd give me about a month to get somewhat comfortable, figure out my way around, adjust to my new life a bit and give me less stress when my new semester starts. UNC is a more academically rigorous school, so I want to be able to focus intently until I'm into the swing of things. Also gives me time to go to the beach a couple of times. :P
I'm growing Ghost Peppers in my indoor garden, and I'm excited they've finally sprouted. What are Ghost Peppers? (They're also known as Bhut Jolokias) THE HOTTEST PEPPERS IN THE WORLD! How hot? REALLY spicy Jalapenos clock in at about 10k Scoville units. Habaneros check in at about 350k. These babies register about 1.1 MILLION Scoville units. I eat Habaneros as snacks. Even I am scared to eat to try them. But you know I will. :P
I went back to knitting in an attempt to work on my fine motor skills, give me a creative outlet, and just because. I'm currently working on a HUGE light blue and navy blanket, though I haven't quite finalized my design so I'm just practicing the stitches I'm plan on using for now. It'll be a UNC themed blanket though! :)
I have other crap to talk about, but I need to think about it for a bit more.
Let's just say that as badass as I am, I'm having major delusions of inadequacy. Perfectionism is a bitch.
~A.
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