So, my current major concern about my moving is finding an apartment. I'd live on campus, but I'd have to have a roommate which doesn't mesh well with my autistic tendencies plus I'd have to have a female roommate, or even worse ROOMMATES. No. Hell no. There's no way I'd be able to focus and study in that situation. The idea itself seriously gives me anxiety. I need my own space to manifest my own weird tendencies. Plus my cat Metro is coming along. I wanna bring Emma, but I don't think that's workable. :( Of course, she's so loyal to me that the idea of leaving her breaks my heart. Hell, I'm gonna miss my brother too. Leaving UNM was an easy decision, the other stuff I leave behind is the hard part.
I've been doing heavy browsing online for places that I will thrive at, and Warren recommended somewhere too. I've found one place I REALLY like, partly because they have a pond with a fountain on the premises. Actually, mostly because of that. That and washer and dryer in the unit. I'm easy to please. :P I'll be walking, biking, or taking the bus to school, and most of the town is connected through the (free) bus lines, so location isn't that much of a concern. Besides being close to the fucking bars, I'm not ok with that. Not a party girl either, quiet nights at home are ideal for me. I prefer intellectual conversation/pursuits at this point in my life, something I'm not going to find at a bar. Though people watching would probably be reallllllly interesting. What I mean is, watching drunk people act stupid. :P I dunno, hopefully I find somewhere where I'm not compromising anything that's a major issue to me. I'm really stressing out about it though. = /
I'm not leaving here with much. My personal effects and my clothes, basically. Well, and two tables I'm not sure how I'm going to get to NC. That's my only furniture, I gotta start all over otherwise including a bed. Which I'm ok with, I like the idea of building my new little world from scratch. Of course, once I actually start doing it I'm probably going to hate it. I won't even have a TV! Usually, this wouldn't be an issue, but there's this thing called basketball I'm kinda into, and I gotta keep track of my Lobos since I won't be nearby anymore. :) It'll be easy to keep track of my Heels, I'll be one! :D UNC has a lottery system for student tickets, so it's not like here where if I go to the ticket office on distribution day I'm guaranteed a ticket. I won't be guaranteed a ticket for any game. But you can bet your ass I'm signing up for the lottery every damn game, and surely I'll get to go to one or two. You'll be hearing all about it, lol.
Check this shit out, I designed these Converse, click on the shoe to spin it around and see the whole thing and make sure you check out the heel of the shoe. :) http://www.converse.com/#/products/shoes/converseone/builder/chuTayOxLea0901,,,206012626 (I love my Converse, alright?) That blue is actually Carolina Blue, and I totally need a pair to rock on my first day of class. :P
Anyways, I'm really excited but also so absolutely stressed out beyond comprehension, not only making sure this transfer goes smoothly, but I'm looking finals dead in the eye. I may have a solution for my being torn about summer classes though, and one that will help me at UNC even too. Need to talk to UNM first though.
This world is mine. :)
~A.
You know, did I REALLY need my ego reinforced. Hell no, but it is and everyone is going to need to deal with it. Two songs for this post, and this post is pretty major. First up, Carolina by Matt Wertz. Simply because, as most people know by now, I'm transferring to Carolina to be a Tar Heel!
Carolina:
Carolina, I know I'm pure badassery, Carolina this is just my tendency, forgive me. ;)
Next up, the song from which the title of this post comes from, Everything, Everyday, Everywhere by Fabolous, featuring Keri Hilson and one of my favs Ryan Leslie. Quick note about Ryan Leslie, he's a fellow mixed breed who didn't graduate high school. Why? Because instead of completing his senior year of high school HE WENT STRAIGHT TO HARVARD AND GOT HIS DEGREE. Holy fuck. That's badass I can appreciate! Anyways, if you like RnB that doesn't sound like pop music, check out my boy R. Les. Dude is impressive and very clever.
Everything, Everyday, Everywhere:
When I sing along to this song in my car (and you bet your ass I do) I change the very first two lines of the song. Well, one word. My version: Same shit different day, just riding through the city looking pretty as the usual, it's same old thing got the name on the ride just to let them know who's who. ;) My favorite line just because it's so obnoxious and kinda offensive: "In this bitch like an unborn baby". Holy god that makes me laugh. This song is definitely kinda my theme song lately. :P
I know I haven't been facebooking or blogging or tweeting much lately, but to be honest I didn't feel like it because I was so stressed out over waiting for my decision, plus I got swamped with end of the semester bullshit at school. I spent the weekend working on stuff, and now I only have one paper to finish and finals to study for, so I have some mental space. I'm back now. :)
I enrolled for the Fall semester today for UNC. Most of what I wanted to take was full, like intro to cognitive science. I would up with a bunch of gen ed stuff, but all of it is pretty interesting AND classes I NEED so it works out. Calculus for social sciences isn't THAT interesting, but it's applied math instead of doing a million problems with no application. I'm a wiz at applying math (ie using stats for basketball) and this makes me a decent programmer too. There's the philosophy to mathematical logic which relates to programming, intro drawing, since I've always wanted to learn to draw, but at UNM the only classes that count towards your fine arts requirement are art history, which is FUCKING BORING, the next level of psych research techniques, and World prehistory, which covers the ancestors to human being up to ancient civilizations. Very cool and interesting stuff to me. Schedule MIGHT change, but I needed to get into classes quick and luckily got interesting stuff that I needed to take. Haven't decided if I'll take a minor or a second major, I might.
I want to take 2 classes this summer at UNM to get me on a more even keel at UNC, but I'm not sure how I will swing it. The first day of class is August 24th, so my badass needs to be in Chapel Hill by then, summer classes end July 31st but Cy factors in too. I was thinking I stay in OK for a while before continuing on down I-40, but I dunno. So much damn planned and details to figure out, I definitely feel overwhelmed. I need to start seriously thinking about where the hell I'm going to live too! AHHH!! So much to do. :(
The best moment of this whole thing so far was when I called my dad to tell him and he basically said he was gonna make the trip with me. Like, I can't even express how happy that made me, even happier than getting in. I made a post before how much that would mean to me, and even thinking about it is causing me to get a little teary eyed as I write this. Thanks dad. For everything. I couldn't have done this without you. I'm a hurricane at this point, and all hurricanes are fueled by hot air, something my dad has given me plenty of! :P I'm kidding with ya dad, I love you. :)
I also go to Chapel Hill with no more risk of seizures than before all this mess, which is reassuring. I'm back to normal, which means everyone can put down their guard about the damn seizures.
So, Warren told me previously he didn't think I could get in. Then I did and I gently teased him about being wrong (I love doing that), and you know what he said? "The sun shines on a dog's balls every now and then." Ooooo, he drives me nuts sometimes! But he's my partner in crime, and it is a massive comfort to know he will be nearby. He's my absolute best friend. That's really as far as I feel like defining our relationship right now. There's more to it, but it doesn't need defining. We know, the rest of you can guess and speculate. :P
Blueshift got a few upgrades. The dome light is now blue LED and there are blue LEDs lighting up the driver and passenger sides on the floor. New tail lights, and the xenons are back. The only thing that needs to be done is the rear bumper needs to be fixed, but I haven't done that because I haven't decided if I'm going to just fix the bumper or repaint the whole damn car. But Blue is looking sliiiiiiiick, and I'm looking slick behind the wheel. :)
I keep walking around like I own the place. Yesterday on campus my strut was in full effect and my attitude was on full display. My ego is SO HUGE right now. I'm leaving UNM for one of the best schools in the country. I'm now pretty convinced I'm unstoppable. :)
I'm bad, bad, BADASS!
~A.
Yes, I know it's been a while. Basically, I am stressed out and have a lot of chaos on my plate right now. I'm so wrapping up dealing with shit I just don't want to write about it, but I promise soon will be some posts with all kinds of details about what's up. Just lately I don't really have it in me to write my typical posts, and even quick blurbs are...well, aggravating to write. Finals week is 3 weeks from Monday and I have papers and presentations to get done, plus trying to cover my bases for next Fall (don't even ask me about that right now, just don't), I'm just swamped and REALLY irked about it. Mostly because I HATE having so much of my mind occupied to the point I get upset and overwhelmed. So that's where it all is right now. You can assume on the days I don't post they're something like this:
Two things quickly, first off Blue is getting his Xenons back this week, I finished redoing the wiring and the bulbs are on the way. He's also getting a brand new flashy set of tail lights too, pics when I get both installed.
Second, I realized something last night. The first rule about Aeris and Warren is you don't talk about Aeris and Warren. What I mean is, although it is an unspoken rule, our "status" is basically forbidden to talk about, both between us and to others. Well, since I'm Aeris, and we all know how I feel about rules...I'm gonna say something about it. As much as we both dance around the bush about things, we're basically "together". I hate any term that implies commitment, so I'm just gonna put it like this: Warren is my #1. I actually refer to him in conversation as such whenever someone gets ballsy to ask what's up with me and him. "Oh, he's my #1."
Interesting post topics to come: P and I are no longer friends and Ryan is back in town and in my face about shit, plus results from my neurologist appointment! My life would make great TV.
~A.
So, the post I was gonna post yesterday revolved around this one song that has since been removed from youtube, and the post made no sense without it. I'm kinda pissed off, but fuck it, I'll go with something else. I'm also in a bad mood because my mom is being moody and rather hostile to me. I'm tired of backhanded comments, and she's handing them out right and left lately. She calls me defective one more time, and she's gonna get a dose of me she never wanted. I don't give a fuck who you are NO ONE TALKS DOWN TO ME. I am no one's doormat, and you better believe that.
Tonight me and Jess were watching the news, and they showed the police sketch of the black guy who stabbed some white girl in the neck 3 times at UNM, the sketch I STRONGLY resemble. Jess started laughing because it looks so much like me, and my phone started going off with emails and messages from people I know making jokes about it. Despite there being moments where the urge is strong, I didn't stab someone in the neck. :P
I made a post before about how I listen to video game music to get me going in the morning. It's like my version of coffee. Instead of the song I was going to do a post about, I decided to post some of my favs, most of which are from one damn game. Well, mostly because the others I can't find on youtube, but whatever. Super Nintendo games are up first. :)
Super Castlevania 4 (awesome already) music form the submerged city. This is one of me and Jess' fav songs from video games ever. I have this game on my Droid. :P I LOVE this song, it's just such a good song and very pretty/haunting.
The Submerged City:
Lavos. This motherfucker was the most evil boss I've ever dealt with. See, the actual end boss has 3 "parts", 2 small guys and this big jackass. As it turns out, you spend your time taking out the big guy...who then gets rezzed by one of the small guys. See, the actual boss is one of the small guys, but you are under every impression you need to kill the big guy to win. He has a few themes and the vid I'm posting you'll see the 3 parts, it's towards the end of the vid. Plus that's the song I usually listen to. He also kills the main character and you have to go save his ass. The game is called Chrono Trigger and is one of my fav games EVER. Plus the music is just badass.
Lavos Theme:
Chrono Trigger again, this time it's Magus' theme. My second fav character in the game.
Magus Theme:
Magus has a sister named Schala, her theme is just plain beautiful:
Schala theme:
Magus starts off as an enemy, and is the archenemy of one of your characters at first. This character is obviously, named Frog, but his real name is Glenn. Magus killed his best friend and mentor, and Frog has been out to get Magus ever since. Who was Frog's best friend? Oh, just some guy named...Cyrus. (you're damn right that's where I got the name)
Frog's theme:
This is the Chrono Trigger main theme, just when you lose your main character, shit looks bleak, things shift and you're back on track to save the world! I really love listening to this song on test days. If you hear this song playing and I'm in Blueshift, get the fuck out of dodge. I'm in one of my moods, and NOT a good one.
CT theme:
Jumping to Playstation (PS) games quickly, I'd get smacked about if I didn't post this one...
Aeris' theme:
Chrono Trigger had a pseudo-sequel on PS called Chrono Cross, also good music.
Scars of Time:
Frozen Flame:
God, there's SO many other I wanna add, but I'll end with my absolute favorite character EVER and her theme. She's from Chrono Trigger, and she is the only character that CAN'T use magic. She is PURE physical strength and beats the hell out of things with her club. Her name is Ayla. I like that name. :P Anyways, was tempted to go as Ayla for Halloween this year (or Bowser, I have a thing for Bowser plus it's one of my many nicknames) but her outfit is a little too skimpy for my tastes. Still love her theme song, and this is my fight song of sorts. Anything in my way is gonna get beat silly, same for her. I can get with a curly haired badass who doesn't need special powers to kick ass. ;)
Ayla (Aeris too! :P) theme:
I'll stop there, there's 20 or so more songs I was thinking of posting but I gotta get up early and take my mom to the airport, she has to go to DC for work. I'm grateful for the reprieve...
I'll go drive myself insane about my app decision in the meantime. :)
~A.
This one about me and my hair: http://mysigmoidalchaos.blogspot.com/
Quick updates: I got invited to join a sorority at UNM (Hell no), Dollar General is teamed up with the charity Autism Speaks for Autism Awareness Month (how awesome is it that Autism Awareness Month is during my fav month, April? It is my fav because it is the FOURTH month :P) so shop there and stop and make a donation and hell buy something for any charity you like if there is nothing there you need, I was not cleared to run the 5k tomorrow not for health reasons but because my neurologist is running and I'm under his orders to NOT RUN so I am bummed about that, UNC decisions come out sometime this NEXT WEEK and I'm all kinds of edgy...and that's about it for now.
A really interesting post goes up tomorrow about me and some of fav music, so check it out. I just do not have the energy to finish it tonight. My mother decided to foster someone's cats so now I'm dealing with 4 dogs and 4 cats and all 8 of them are upset, my cats don't like the new cats, the dogs don't like the new cats and the new cats are assholes. The house is a mess and it's one big disaster.
Much love,
~A.
The title is Egyptian for scarab beetles and means to transform or to become. My latest fascination is with scarab beetles of all kinds. I dunno why, I randomly get fascinated with random creatures.
So, I know I've been exceptionally sporadic on Facebook, Twitter and here, as pointed out to me in a text message received earlier. 3 of my classes all the damn exams except the finals are on the same day, so every couple of week I have 3 exams the same day. So that's been keeping me busy and brutalizing my free time and mental space, due to a neurologist appointment where I can't have anything in my system, from advil to vitamins to my usual meds so I'm also going through a very violent and uncomfortable withdrawal from two of my meds plus I had to stop my birth control that keeps me from bleeding myself anemic once a month, so now I'm anemic and my body has no idea when I'm supposed to have my period so I've basically had 4 periods in the past 5-6 weeks so I'm EXTRA anemic and having to eat more more and more often which has resulted in about 2-3 pounds of weight gain over the past week. I am fucking MISERABLE and keeping updates going is like the last thing from my mind. So that's what's up. I hate my life right now, and I still have 9 days until my neurologist appointment so shit is gonna get worse for me, at least health-wise.
Today however, I am in a pretty happy mood and feel not so shitty, even though I slept maybe 3-4 hours last night, but I took a 4 hour nap when I got home today so I'm functioning. I found out today they FINALLY got in touch with the lady who rear ended me and have accepted liability so I can get my car fixed or take a $1300 check and get it fixed on my own. I'm actually debating on this one since I can grab a new bumper cover and get my car repainted RIGHT and have money left over, possibly to fix other minor shit on my car that drives me nuts. I dunno though. Since like 570 bucks of the 1300 are parts and paint, the rest is labor. Somehow that isn't justifiable to me, but at the same time part of me thinks "oh just get your car fixed and have them pay for it". There's a sticking point for me though, and that is having part of my car repainted AND they're gonna put clear coat on the part they repaint...something the rest of my car lacks since it was painted with paint that has built in clear coat. So like 1/4th of my car is gonna look like a new car and the rest will look like it does now. Which, for fuck's sake, I could repaint it myself and make it match better. That's another tempting idea. Also, they want to charge 95 bucks for ONE used tail light, when I can get the cool looking aftermarket ones I want for 45 bucks...FOR THE PAIR. So, in a way, I can get more for my money doing it myself. Through the del sol club I hang out with, I have access to professional painting equipment and a couple of professionals who'd help me get the job done for free. Still mulling this over, but my "fuck you, I can do this on my own and better and more what I want" attitude is definitely in full force. I'm not helpless or stupid, I don't NEED someone to fix my car for me. I've already removed my rear bumper before to add reinforcement under it so it can take a harder impact than standard, I could take it off and put a new one on just as easily. :) I'm telling you, being independent, smart and CAPABLE is going to serve me well in life, and already has. Maybe a custom paint job is in order... :P
So, I mentioned the del sol club I hang out with. Basically, there's about 12 of us total now, just people who are del sol drivers and lovers who all get together in our del sols and hang out and do stupid shit. For example, 6-8 of us get together on weekends and there's 6-8 del sols driving around in a herd, usually surrounding some asshole in an SUV on the phone and being pains in the ass. Like we'll surround someone and then do 10-15 under the limit, and they can't get away cause, well, they're surrounded! It's like an NBA player being impeded by a bunch of midgets. It's fucking hilarious. I've learned that everyone in this club tends to think like me driving wise, where we won't be bullied cause we drive a small car, but we will do some bullying because fuck you, we can. :P I have the "smallest" del sol since mine is the only one lowered. I'm also the only girl. I get lots of respect though because I'm not one of THOSE girl del sol drivers who doesn't understand the car but just like it cause it's cute. Blue isn't cute, Blue is BADASS. My favorite activity is del sol soccer. See, del sols are low cars without being lowered. this leads to shit like boxes and tumbleweeds getting stuck under them on a regular basis if hit at a decent speed. But, we've discovered at slower speeds, like under 15 miles per hour, tumbleweeds can be pushed around by a del sol. There are a bunch of rules so there are no collisions, but basically, we find a giant tumbleweed (not hard here) and we play soccer with it by pushing it around with our cars. This is seriously one of the most ridiculous scenes I've ever seen with a few del sols hijacking an empty parking lot and pushing a tumbleweed between two cones as our goal posts. But it is so much god damn fun. Everyone wants me on their team because my car is lowered so I can move a bit faster without pulverizing the tumbleweed. Though, I still take out the tumbleweed sometimes, if you look under my car you will see pieces of tumbleweeds stuck underneath. But everyone creams the tumbleweed at some point, and the person who scores the winning goal gets to hit the tumbleweed at a high speed which is just making a big mess and sending pieces everywhere, but it's fun to watch and do.
I was hoping I'd hear back from my preferred school application wise this week, but it's looking like it got pushed back to next week because they're so overwhelmed. = / But they pushed back the first year admissions decisions a week so I'm not super surprised transfers got pushed back. BUT JESUS I AM GOING INSANE I JUST WANT TO KNOW IF I GOT IN!!!! The absolute latest is the 17th, so I'm still under 2 weeks till I hear about my app. Gah.
Warren is my best friend and my partner in life, and to quote a song: Cause I'm a rider, and he's a roller, put us together, how they gonna stop both us?
They can't. ;)
~A.