Primordial Chaos

So, my current major concern about my moving is finding an apartment. I'd live on campus, but I'd have to have a roommate which doesn't mesh well with my autistic tendencies plus I'd have to have a female roommate, or even worse ROOMMATES. No. Hell no. There's no way I'd be able to focus and study in that situation. The idea itself seriously gives me anxiety. I need my own space to manifest my own weird tendencies. Plus my cat Metro is coming along. I wanna bring Emma, but I don't think that's workable. :( Of course, she's so loyal to me that the idea of leaving her breaks my heart. Hell, I'm gonna miss my brother too. Leaving UNM was an easy decision, the other stuff I leave behind is the hard part.

I've been doing heavy browsing online for places that I will thrive at, and Warren recommended somewhere too. I've found one place I REALLY like, partly because they have a pond with a fountain on the premises. Actually, mostly because of that. That and washer and dryer in the unit. I'm easy to please. :P I'll be walking, biking, or taking the bus to school, and most of the town is connected through the (free) bus lines, so location isn't that much of a concern. Besides being close to the fucking bars, I'm not ok with that. Not a party girl either, quiet nights at home are ideal for me. I prefer intellectual conversation/pursuits at this point in my life, something I'm not going to find at a bar. Though people watching would probably be reallllllly interesting. What I mean is, watching drunk people act stupid. :P I dunno, hopefully I find somewhere where I'm not compromising anything that's a major issue to me. I'm really stressing out about it though. = /

I'm not leaving here with much. My personal effects and my clothes, basically. Well, and two tables I'm not sure how I'm going to get to NC. That's my only furniture, I gotta start all over otherwise including a bed. Which I'm ok with, I like the idea of building my new little world from scratch. Of course, once I actually start doing it I'm probably going to hate it. I won't even have a TV! Usually, this wouldn't be an issue, but there's this thing called basketball I'm kinda into, and I gotta keep track of my Lobos since I won't be nearby anymore. :) It'll be easy to keep track of my Heels, I'll be one! :D UNC has a lottery system for student tickets, so it's not like here where if I go to the ticket office on distribution day I'm guaranteed a ticket. I won't be guaranteed a ticket for any game. But you can bet your ass I'm signing up for the lottery every damn game, and surely I'll get to go to one or two. You'll be hearing all about it, lol.

Check this shit out, I designed these Converse, click on the shoe to spin it around and see the whole thing and make sure you check out the heel of the shoe. :) http://www.converse.com/#/products/shoes/converseone/builder/chuTayOxLea0901,,,206012626 (I love my Converse, alright?) That blue is actually Carolina Blue, and I totally need a pair to rock on my first day of class. :P

Anyways, I'm really excited but also so absolutely stressed out beyond comprehension, not only making sure this transfer goes smoothly, but I'm looking finals dead in the eye. I may have a solution for my being torn about summer classes though, and one that will help me at UNC even too. Need to talk to UNM first though. 

This world is mine. :)

~A.