I've been rather busy as of late, what with midterms and dealing with the whole seizure thing. So I've been slacking on posting, not for lack of things to say, but for lack of time.
As just about everyone knows, I was recently diagnosed with epilepsy. This fucking sucks. I'm just going to have to deal with seizures for the rest of my life and that's yet another medication I'll have to take. I've had 2 seizures in the past month or so after having never had one in my life previously, and it's fucking bizarre from my point of view. I don't get an aura or anything, no warning at all. I just know the next thing going on is I am coming to and I am very groggy and tired. They are very physically exhausting. I can run 15 miles and not get that tired. They also fuck with my memory a bit, I lose most of the time a few hours before and after the seizure. I have no recollection of that time besides maybe a couple of seconds here and there.
Also ever since this second seizure I have been sleeping quite a bit more, about 11 hours a day including naps. I'm almost always tired, I come home from class and nap usually. Even more interesting is how I feel like I hold a different place in my world than I did. Just going to class feels and seems different. Though my wiring does tend to be fried for about a week afterwards, it's just this week I have midterms and the like so I have to force myself a bit harder to focus. My first seizure I had a week off and so didn't notice the disconnect from my academic life. I have quite the impressive black eye too, I apparently caught myself while falling with the left side of my face and am sporting a hell of a shiner. People keep asking if I was fist fighting over the weekend. :P
All the college apps are out and now it's just the waiting game for decisions. My stomach is in knots all the damn time just thinking about it. April will be interesting....
This Sunday is Selection Sunday where they announce the seeds for the Big Dance. UNM is one of the teams who will be featured live on the show where they announce the seeds, and they're holding a party at The Pit during that time. So that's where I'll be, and I'll try not to embarrass myself too much. Maybe. :P
Warren and I are getting along wonderfully, he's been super supportive and concerned during this whole seizure mess. He called me just before bed last night and I always have a blast talking to him. He's a sweetheart and I love the snot out of him and he loves the snot out of me. He's protective of me too, but hates admitting it. Typical guy bullshit. :P
Ok, I've got some homework and studying to do along with needing a nap. I'll try and be better about keeping this updated, life just got crazy there for a while.
~A.
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~A.
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