Primordial Chaos

Chaos: A state of matter and will above all that is fertile with possibilities, the void from which order and greatness were born.

 Is Sure To Fade.....Away....Again....
Too far away for me to hold...


And I was doing so well...this song came up on Pandora radio on my way to school this morning. I fucking broke down crying in front of everyone. I was straight sobbing my heart out. I'm fucking crying right now.

It's been a month, and I miss him so god damn much. It hurts just as much as that first day. There's nothing I can do...I just want my best friend back! I hate this, I'd do anything to have him back as my best friend...

I'm in so much pain right now. I just...nothing's hurt me like this before. Ever. I am not really coping as well as I would like. This hurts so bad....so god damn bad...

Oh God, just let this end...I'm not strong enough to deal with too much more of this. I'm really not. I'm already breaking...

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I clear my mind here, basically. It's my mental toilet.

My definition of chaos up above describes me rather well. Fertile with possibilities and a future source of order and greatness...I'll get there eventually. This is me documenting parts of my journey.

And it's about to get interesting....

Part Of The Queue - Oasis - listen now

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