Primordial Chaos

Yeesh, it's been  few days since my last post, there's all kinds of shit to say...I'll try and keep this post under control.

Rewind to Thursday. The plan was I go to my doc appointment then me and my mom leave for Tucson right after. Well, I never made it to my doc because I got rear ended on my way there by some ditzy woman from India. So, now Blueshift looks like a beat up mess, BUT this also means the other person has to fix my car. This includes the previous damage on my rear bumper since she superseded that by thoroughly fucking my whole rear bumper. So, despite the fact Blueshift is beat up, I'm not TOO mad because my car gets fixed and I'm not on the hook for it. :P But I did miss my doc appointment and had to reschedule, but that's not a major deal. I'm fine, no injuries. So all in all a "good" thing I got rear ended. I'd joked to my mom about how someone should rear end me so my bumper gets fixed, and lo and behold. :P We left for Tucson once I got done calling both insurance companies.

My weekend in Tucson was fun. I hadn't seen Dan and Bert for a year or so, and they were amazed at how good I look. :) We basically ate and drank all weekend with some shopping here and there. At IKEA I bought some candles that are baby blue, and I also bought four 16 inch length stalks of lucky bamboo, and they are in a vase that has these plastic rocks that are one of the colors of my first choice college I applied to. :) I figured I could use a little luck getting in! My mom bought me some booze, peach vodka, my favorite French Riesling wine, and a French mixed liqueur that's bright pink but really good. Currently sipping on a screwdriver made from the vodka. :P Saturday night, my last night there, we all got drunk and watched Rocky Horror Picture Show. That was wild. I also had an In N Out burger, my first one since I'd left Cali. God those are so good. One of Dan and Bert's dogs, who briefly stayed with us here in ABQ after being rescued and before going to Tucson, latched on to me like stink on shit. He'd go into the bedroom where I was sleeping and try and wake me up to play with him. He's a mini Schnauzer named Lucciano (AKA Lucci) and he just fell in love with me. It was a running joke all weekend. I had a good time in AZ. It was nice to get the hell out of ABQ.

I also checked into U of AZ while there, and they have a cognitive science major for undergrad. I know people there in AZ, another family friend Paul lives in Phoenix, Dan and Bert in Tucson, and a few other people I know from my travels so I'm heavily considering that as my backup school if I don't get into choice #1. Which I'm not really expecting to at this point, I keep comparing myself to other transfer applicants who applied and post on this forum I hang out on, and I don't compare academically. I know they can't touch me on my essays, but those alone won't get me in. Supposedly, 2 weeks from Thursday I will know if I got in or not, the evening of April 8th is the tentative decision date. As you can imagine, I'm so fucking edgy every day closer we get to then.

My mom had surgery on one of her finger joints that was leaking joint fluid and I was the lucky one who had to get up at 5 am to go with her since she couldn't drive home after the anesthesia. I'd spent all day Sunday traveling back from Tucson, got home late evening, had to run errands and get shit together for the week and didn't get to bed till 11 or so. I was TIRED when I got up at 5 am. I'd slept shitty all weekend because I have problems sleeping in unfamiliar places, an issue compounded by sharing a room with my mother who snores very VERY loudly, being cold every night because there wasn't enough blankets, and not being able to sleep in my underwear because my mom was in the room. I came home from class today and slept for a few hours. I needed it. I'm still not caught up on sleep though. It's almost 11 here and I'm kinda tired, this screwdriver is also helping me along that path too, lol.

So, now that I might actually want to be seen in a swimsuit, it's that time of year to start looking for new one since I now do not own a suit that fits. Since I wear a medium/size 8, lots of the cuter, more stylish suits come in my size. The problem being, most of these suits are a little too revealing and not MY style. Obviously girls who wear these just lay by the pool, because you can't swim in these fucking things. I, being the avid swimmer I am, would much prefer something I could swim in without everyone seeing more of me than I'd like to show but also without wearing something that is like swimming in a muumuu. Still looking for something that is very me. I love the warm weather, I want Blue fixed up so I can drive with the top down.

Ok, I'm kinda tipsy, I have a 9:30 am class so I'm going to end this right here since I've covered the major things I wanted to say.

Much love to all of you,

~A.