Primordial Chaos

Chaos: A state of matter and will above all that is fertile with possibilities, the void from which order and greatness were born.

My mom took me makeup shopping today, she said to make me more "presentable". She's been watching a lot of reality TV fashion/style/makeover type shows, I'm thinking she's projecting on to me. I decided I'll wear the damn makeup, but I'm calling it war paint. That's gonna surprise no one that I'd call it war paint. :P

So I forgot my meds over my long weekend in Tucson, and now my body is all fucked up. It's a lot better today than yesterday though. Except the birth control pills I take so my uterus doesn't try to bleed me out every month are those where you take them for 3 weeks, then off a week to have your period. Well, being off them for 5 days signaled for my estrogen kitchen to start cooking up muff marinara. For the second time in 2 weeks. This sucks.

I saw one of the guys from the Lobos b-ball team today while walking between classes. I gave him a high five. Season's over, but it was one hell of a ride. :)

Just over two weeks and I should hear back from my first choice school and oh my god am I stressing over it.  I'm so hoping I'm good enough, but I don't think I am. :( I'll be glad when this is over, even if it means I'm heartbroken. I'm always heartbroken so nothing new, ha.

I had a bunch of things I wanted to say, but they're all escaping me now that I sat down to write. Argh. So this post ends here I guess.

~A.

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I clear my mind here, basically. It's my mental toilet.

My definition of chaos up above describes me rather well. Fertile with possibilities and a future source of order and greatness...I'll get there eventually. This is me documenting parts of my journey.

And it's about to get interesting....

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