Primordial Chaos

Ok, I swear this time I'm not going to stop writing here :P I'm also trying to not get mushy or wax poetic, I can't promise anything there.

I'm just ridiculously happy. Like REALLY happy. I can say with all honesty I have never been THIS happy in my life. Hopefully that doesn't change anytime soon. Everything is great, I want for nothing and no one. Everything is going good. Will that powers that be PLEASE not introduce any drama into my life? I've had enough for this round, thank you, and I like feeling like I do.

Every moment he's been back is surreal. We hit extra surreal when he called me last night and we spoke on the phone for the first time in many months. It was like nothing had happened. We straight hit the giggles right away like we always did. It's hard to have a conversation and giggle. But hearing his voice once again made me feel at peace, and the last little scraps of torment left my mind. The world was finally as it should be, or so it feels.

It was a bit emotional, I went from giggles to crying to giggles to crying...I felt kinda overwhelmed. So did he. Hearing each other made it VERY real that the other was really there. But we were beyond glad to have each other back. Things are different, we're both different too. But better than before. And everything is going to be ok. We've got to work as a team, not against each other. I think previously it had been forgotten we were on the same side. After a few months without each other I think we both realized that the other was on our team and that we needed them.

Despite all the success and good things that have happened to me, my world didn't feel right. I was missing a piece. Now I have it, and everything feels like it should.

I am tormented no longer. I never want to be again.

~A.