Primordial Chaos

Song by the Brand New Heavies. I love this song. Random fact: Jay Kay, the lead singer of Jamiroquai, auditioned to be their lead singer, but lost out to another singer. After he didn't get the spot, he formed Jamiroquai. I think it was a good thing he lost. ;) The Heavies were touring with Van Hunt earlier this year, I REALLY wish I'd had a chance to go. I bet it was an awesome show, they're both fantastic live. Dream On Dreamer is definitely a theme song of mine and I think when you hear it you'll hear what I mean. My fav line is "If you live to learn you'll be lucky one day." 



I've had a crush on Simon Bartholomew, the white guy on guitar, for about 13 years. :P I guess I have a thing for white guys with blue eyes, brown hair in that shaggy cut, and who play guitar. 8 of the last 10 guys I've dated or had a relationship with fit that description. I just calculated the percentage of guys I've ever dated who fit that, and it's just over 84%. (84.3128, to be exact, and yes I'm nerd.) I couldn't explain why if I tried. My brother has a thing for REALLY short blonde white girls. My dad has a thing for white women, so I'm gonna blame it on genetics. :P I think Noel Gallagher of Oasis is attractive too, and he fits the description. It's not an intentional or conscious thing, I just have consistent tastes. :P


If you haven't noticed, my profile pic here, on Twitter, and everywhere else has been updated to a pic I took yesterday. I really like this pic, I think it really captures that dreamer/thinker side of me. Which, you know, is basically all of me. :P

The Heels lost this morning, by TWO. Kind of a bummer way to start off the day. I was expecting both teams to win and be all hyped up all day long. I was kinda down after the Heels lost.

As for my Lobos, they mopped the Pit with NM State. Apparently a few of State's best players are academically ineligible too. Doh! I felt embarrassed for State, really. It wasn't even a fun game to watch, we had 20+ point leads until the 2nd half, when we started playing sloppy. It got real close at about 4 minutes left, but we came back and won by 17. The awesome part is my Lobos ARE STILL UNDEFEATED. What alternate universe do I live in where I look to the Lobos winning to make me feel better about the Heels losing? It's supposed to be the other way around, lol. See, all that crap I talked about the Lobos is coming back to make me look bad. :P Lobos beat a top 25 team with our win over Cal, and for a team that is mostly freshman and sophomores they're doing fantastic. I was lurking some b-ball forums (yes, I'm that involved) and a comment I saw was that the Lobos don't realize they're too young to be that good.

This week though, I'm really nervous for my Lobos. Our next game is Wed. at San Diego State. Now SDS hasn't really been playing well, so I'm not super worried outside of the fact it's an away game and how sloppy we got in the 2nd half tonight. It's our game on Saturday I'm fearing our first loss from. We play Texas A&M as an away game, and they're another top 25 team, I believe about #19 or so. Cal was #25 and gave us a bit of struggle on OUR court. If we can pull both of these games off, I'm willing to bet WE will be a top 25 team. That would be pretty damn cool, especially since most people wrote off the Lobos at the beginning of the season because our team is so young. (Yeah, me included, shut up. :P) The odds of us winning the National Championship is 20,000 to 1, lol. I love my Lobos, but I'm NOT taking those odds. We're not that good/lucky, regardless of how we've been playing lately. :P

In between games I was practicing for my French oral interview, I signed up to go early on Monday to get it over with. I've been writing out verb conjugations, practicing speaking, memorizing grammar rules in detail...gonna make sure I know it. Also gonna spice things up with a little charm and wit, so I expect to do well.

It's bad enough UNM is pissing me off on a regular basis, but now it's cold weather season. I get exceptionally cranky in cold weather. So now I'm extra crabby. My skin also dislikes cold dry weather, and I'm pretty sure it's drinking lotion as much as I have to put it on. I'd put a humidifier in my room, but I have the coldest room in the house, and cold moist isn't really better than cold dry. Bad enough I have sensitive skin, but dry weather really makes it a pain in the ass to deal with. Remind me to transfer to somewhere warm and humid. :P Did you know that at 40-60% humidity your body functions it's best, it is the most comfortable for humans and the rate of bacterial growth is at its lowest? My guitar also happens to sound the best around there too, and actually that's the best range for all solid wood instruments as well. I'm seriously full of random knowledge like this.

Speaking of things I'm full of, (no, not shit, smartasses) I also have an impressive vocabulary. One of my favorite words to drop in conversation to see who catches on is pogonip. Even Firefox doesn't recognize it as a word, judging by the red underline FF just put under it. Anyways, it's an ice fog in mountain valleys, and it's a really easy word to not give a lot of context to. I often like to set it up so people think it's a small animal. Word games are fun, especially since I tend to have the upper hand. I LOVE language games and trivia games. If there's 2 things I NEVER EVER doubt about myself, it's that I am smart and I know a lot of stuff/words.

As a matter of fact, to only way to set me off really quick is to question or insult my intelligence. You can call me whatever name you want using whatever terminology you can come up with (I can guarantee I've been called worse by better) and insult my looks, my racial background, my choice of major, whatever, but if you DARE insult my intelligence, I will make you exceptionally sorry you did. That's not up for question.

I saw this link on CNN, and since it happened in my home state, or what I guess is my home state, I had to read the news story. Apparently there was an apartment fire in OKC (story here) and people were dropping their babies off the roof for officers to catch. Now, this isn't exactly a funny story, and it must be horrible to be in such a frightening situation. However, when I read the story, I couldn't stop laughing. Remember that old video game where the babies came flying out of a burning building and you had to bounce them on a stretcher to safety? That's what immediately came to my mind. I had to go play that game after reading that story to get it out of my system. I'm still giggling though, and yes I realize how demented that is. But come on, you have to admit it is at least kinda funny. :P

One more week of classes. Whoa. This semester FLEW by. I was thinking it was gonna drag ass because I'm all excited about applying to other schools and all, along with other crapola I've been dealing with personally. You know how when you feel down or crappy time seems to drag its fat ass? Not so this semester. I have to say I really enjoyed this semester and all the experiences that came with it. I learned a lot, both academically and about myself, and have lots of really great memories. I thrive in academic environments, and I also learned I thrive in a research environment too.

Not only is this semester winding up, but so is this year. I'll go into this in grand detail on a New Year's Eve post I'm sure, but this year has been fucking wild. It started off on a shitty note, got really REALLY good, dipped down again in June, went up over the summer, dipped again in October, but despite my crybabying and moping, it's been going up again. I reconnected with my brother, am absolutely thriving at school, found my path in life and a lot of myself, bonded closer to my dad...there's so much good that happened to me it's really hard to dismiss them for the lows. Though I will say the lows were REALLY low and even now I struggle to deal with the not so good changes in my life, especially the loss of some of my closest friends through both death and otherwise. My spiritual strength tattoo on my right arm should infer strength of heart too, though it doesn't as it is written. I had my 4 virtues I value in myself and others, which I combined into 3. I started with wisdom, intellect, spirit and strength, which became wisdom through listening, intellectual power, and spiritual strength. I think over this year I learned/discovered I have strength of heart too. So we can throw that one on the list. :)

I guess it can be said that now I can fly on my own, even though I still crash from time to time. However, I can never forget who reminded me I have wings and showed me how to soar.

~A.