Primordial Chaos

Song by Oasis. Only using it because, well, it's Sunday Morning as I write this!

I meant to rant about this Friday, but kept forgetting. So it's going here.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE TO WHERE BLACK FRIDAY SEEMS LIKE A GOOD IDEA?

People die and get put in hospital for this shit. Not to mention having to get up so early God isn't even awake, hang outside in the cold and fight other people for the shit you want.  People camp out in front of stores for DAYS. The HELL with THAT. People get all fucking mental during those sales, and you get to see the worst in people. First I dislike shopping. Second, if someone were to push, shove or talk shit to me, they're in for a real nasty surprise. ESPECIALLY if they put their hands on me. That opens the door for me to put my hands on them, and I'm not above doing so knuckle first.

People are fucking ridiculous.

Moving on, the Heels play this evening, and I'm wearing my Carolina blue shorts. GO HEELS! I'm excited! I have my "that was some bullshit" phrase ready to go. :P I'm expecting a win tonight, of course. Don't usually expect that from the Lobos, but they're making me look bad by doing really well. So cheers to both teams!

I've developed an addiction to frosted mini wheats lately. Like eating them 3-4 times a DAY. I'll let you figure out what such large amounts of fiber do to your digestive system and intestinal tract. I'll just say chronic bathroom trips, but I can't stop, they are SO GOOD. They're my new favorite cereal, the previous was Lucky Charms. Not even remotely sure why I mentioned that.

For reasons COMPLETELY beyond me, guys in their late 30 to mid 40s have discovered I exist or something and keep asking me out. I'm talking 9 guys 37+ in the past 2 weeks. The fact I'm TEN to TWENTY years their junior doesn't phase them. Fucking phases me though, I feel like I must look a lot older than I am or something. It makes me feel OLD, period. I refuse to be some old guy's trophy chick. Hell, I refuse to be ANY guy's trophy chick. I have better shit to do. Not to mention most of them are dumb as rocks on a good day. Old, dumb...what exactly is supposed to appeal to me again? Oh, and when I turn them down, they either call me a bitch (not entirely debating that one) or they give me some bullshit about how I'm wasting my time with guys my age and an older man knows how to better treat a woman. Insecure much? Geez. I'm 26 and rather intelligent, treating me like I need to be guided by an older man because I'm some form of helpless is a good way to PISS ME OFF. This is one of those times I love my headphones, I just put them on, turn them up, and walk away before I slap someone. It's just some creepy bullshit. I need a shirt that says don't even ask me, I'm not interested or something.

The more I learn about people through interactions and my major, the more I become disinterested in other people because they fucking scare me. I finally conquer my autism enough to come out of my shell and try and connect with other people, but now I'm starting to think I had the right idea the first time around. Though, I will admit a large part of that is being disgusted with the lack of intellectual peers in my life. I'm seriously allergic to stupid.

~A.