N.E.R.D. album title.
All of my post titles relate directly to something in my post. Sometimes that's hard to see, but not this one.
No, I do not have synesthesia, where your senses get swapped, like you smell sounds and hear touch. But I do see sounds.
What I mean is when I hear a noise, voice, music, whatever, I get an immediate detailed mental picture/video. Let's take Part Of The Queue for example. When I hear the song, I mentally have a little video of how the song relates to me. Kinda like a music video.
This leads into the subject of my bizarre memory. Well, let's say unusual. I have an eidetic memory. This is otherwise known as photographic memory. Now, somehow people assume this means you remember anything and everything in great detail. This isn't the case. It's called photographic memory because you remember in...pictures!
I do remember everything in pictures. I mean everything. I can recall in great detail the environment around when I was told something. I can tell you the exact outfit my dad was wearing on 9/11 when he told me what had happened. I can tell you how the living room was arranged. I can tell you what I was wearing. I don't remember much of what was said. That's a known complication of mine, I have a very difficult time remembering stuff told to me (this is a bitch in lectures), but I can remember the gist of it. I can tell you the most ridiculous details of what I saw around me, and in recalling those details do I remember the topic discussed. This is NOT the most effective way to remember things. Lectures are very very difficult for me, but labs are easy because I am doing and seeing.
This becomes a major issues at certain times. For example, someone asking me for directions and they want street names. I can only direct by landmarks and buildings. Or I have to go somewhere at night I've only been to during the day, or vice versa. I have a very difficult time finding my way. Street names mean nothing to me, because I don't remember them, but I can tell you pretty accurately what is on that street.
This also can become an issue when I talk to someone on the phone or in person. If I'm not completely interested, I won't remember crap. If I am interested and the convo means something to me, not only will I remember what was said but where I was, time of day, stuff around me, clothes I was wearing etc.
This works just like "regular" memory, I forget things and some things are reinforced by certain triggers, the more I encounter something the better I remember it and so on.
Say something unpleasant happens to me in front of a certain building. Every time I am there the memory will come rushing back almost as if I was reliving it. That sucks. A lot. There's a spot in my bedroom I've blocked off for this reason.
I know I'm quirky as hell. To confirm this idea, I have a list of things that REALLY bother me about other people. And they're fucking ridiculous. But they set me off like nothing else, I usually get extremely irritated by these people.
1) I can't stand people who walk with their toes pointed out to the side instead of straight ahead. They also tend to waddle when they walk and that irritates me.
2) If their second toe is longer than their big toe.
3) People wearing orange.
4) People who add random r's into words. Such as warsh instead of wash.
5) Anyone to who I have to explain what a word I said means. This interrupts my train of thought, and it's hard for me to remember where I was.
6) Anyone wearing clothes where their, ahem, extra weight it a little too obvious. Such as girls wearing jeans a size or two too small and have a muffin top spilling over their jeans...while wearing a tight or short shirt.
7) Anyone who wears those damn Ugg boots with shorts, I've seen guys do this too.
8) Girly girls. The ones who squeal when you mention that Twilight bullshit kind of girly.
9) People who use like almost every other word.
10) Any guy who comes up and tries to hit on me, and addresses me as anything other than my name. Ask me my damn name first, assholes. You get my nasty side if you address me as bitch in any context, even in a "compliment". Such as "Damn girl, youse a fine ass bitch". (Actually said to me) I'll show you bitch, stupid.
11) Anyone with a high pitched voice.
12) Girls who put on this big show of how "helpless" they are to get a guy's attention or get him to do something for her.
13) Guys who treat me as helpless because they've had many encounters with #12. I bet I'm more capable than most men, thank you very much.
14) Mouth breathers. This one for whatever reason is a serious sin in my world. I will not talk to or associate with anyone who walks around breathing through their mouth on a regular basis. I understand allergies and such, but I can tell when it's allergies and when you're a fucking mouth breather. People who are standing around, not walking or in a hurry somewhere and winded, and are breathing through their mouths are the worst. I will not even acknowledge them it aggravates me that much.
15) When people sit next to me, especially on the bus. ESPECIALLY if they are spilling over into my seat either through a big ass or have no concept of personal space. People I do not know touching me makes me very upset. My personal space is a very large area, being in it already upsets me, but then touching me makes you qualify for the 9th rung of hell. If you're a mouth breather too, I am imagining you spontaneously vaporizing.
16) People who make a lot of eye contact with me and I am not talking to them. Guys checking me out, someone who thinks I'm weird looking, doesn't matter the reason. Making eye contact with me is just fucking uncomfortable for me. I can barely do it with people I know or am talking to. Ever since I started wearing my hat on a regular basis, I keep the brim down low to hide my eyes and avoid this.
17) If I do not know you, and you touch/grab my forearm in any situation, I immediately become upset. If I know you, touching/grabbing my forearm while I am STANDING will piss me off. If I am seated, laying down, whatever, you're good. If I am standing we're gonna have a problem.
That's a very abbreviated list, but you can see there's no real rhyme or reason to them. Some of them are fairly common things, even.
My world is very very different from yours. And much more scary. It's one hell of an intense experience though, and because of that, it's pretty fun too.
~A.
No, I do not have synesthesia, where your senses get swapped, like you smell sounds and hear touch. But I do see sounds.
What I mean is when I hear a noise, voice, music, whatever, I get an immediate detailed mental picture/video. Let's take Part Of The Queue for example. When I hear the song, I mentally have a little video of how the song relates to me. Kinda like a music video.
This leads into the subject of my bizarre memory. Well, let's say unusual. I have an eidetic memory. This is otherwise known as photographic memory. Now, somehow people assume this means you remember anything and everything in great detail. This isn't the case. It's called photographic memory because you remember in...pictures!
I do remember everything in pictures. I mean everything. I can recall in great detail the environment around when I was told something. I can tell you the exact outfit my dad was wearing on 9/11 when he told me what had happened. I can tell you how the living room was arranged. I can tell you what I was wearing. I don't remember much of what was said. That's a known complication of mine, I have a very difficult time remembering stuff told to me (this is a bitch in lectures), but I can remember the gist of it. I can tell you the most ridiculous details of what I saw around me, and in recalling those details do I remember the topic discussed. This is NOT the most effective way to remember things. Lectures are very very difficult for me, but labs are easy because I am doing and seeing.
This becomes a major issues at certain times. For example, someone asking me for directions and they want street names. I can only direct by landmarks and buildings. Or I have to go somewhere at night I've only been to during the day, or vice versa. I have a very difficult time finding my way. Street names mean nothing to me, because I don't remember them, but I can tell you pretty accurately what is on that street.
This also can become an issue when I talk to someone on the phone or in person. If I'm not completely interested, I won't remember crap. If I am interested and the convo means something to me, not only will I remember what was said but where I was, time of day, stuff around me, clothes I was wearing etc.
This works just like "regular" memory, I forget things and some things are reinforced by certain triggers, the more I encounter something the better I remember it and so on.
Say something unpleasant happens to me in front of a certain building. Every time I am there the memory will come rushing back almost as if I was reliving it. That sucks. A lot. There's a spot in my bedroom I've blocked off for this reason.
I know I'm quirky as hell. To confirm this idea, I have a list of things that REALLY bother me about other people. And they're fucking ridiculous. But they set me off like nothing else, I usually get extremely irritated by these people.
1) I can't stand people who walk with their toes pointed out to the side instead of straight ahead. They also tend to waddle when they walk and that irritates me.
2) If their second toe is longer than their big toe.
3) People wearing orange.
4) People who add random r's into words. Such as warsh instead of wash.
5) Anyone to who I have to explain what a word I said means. This interrupts my train of thought, and it's hard for me to remember where I was.
6) Anyone wearing clothes where their, ahem, extra weight it a little too obvious. Such as girls wearing jeans a size or two too small and have a muffin top spilling over their jeans...while wearing a tight or short shirt.
7) Anyone who wears those damn Ugg boots with shorts, I've seen guys do this too.
8) Girly girls. The ones who squeal when you mention that Twilight bullshit kind of girly.
9) People who use like almost every other word.
10) Any guy who comes up and tries to hit on me, and addresses me as anything other than my name. Ask me my damn name first, assholes. You get my nasty side if you address me as bitch in any context, even in a "compliment". Such as "Damn girl, youse a fine ass bitch". (Actually said to me) I'll show you bitch, stupid.
11) Anyone with a high pitched voice.
12) Girls who put on this big show of how "helpless" they are to get a guy's attention or get him to do something for her.
13) Guys who treat me as helpless because they've had many encounters with #12. I bet I'm more capable than most men, thank you very much.
14) Mouth breathers. This one for whatever reason is a serious sin in my world. I will not talk to or associate with anyone who walks around breathing through their mouth on a regular basis. I understand allergies and such, but I can tell when it's allergies and when you're a fucking mouth breather. People who are standing around, not walking or in a hurry somewhere and winded, and are breathing through their mouths are the worst. I will not even acknowledge them it aggravates me that much.
15) When people sit next to me, especially on the bus. ESPECIALLY if they are spilling over into my seat either through a big ass or have no concept of personal space. People I do not know touching me makes me very upset. My personal space is a very large area, being in it already upsets me, but then touching me makes you qualify for the 9th rung of hell. If you're a mouth breather too, I am imagining you spontaneously vaporizing.
16) People who make a lot of eye contact with me and I am not talking to them. Guys checking me out, someone who thinks I'm weird looking, doesn't matter the reason. Making eye contact with me is just fucking uncomfortable for me. I can barely do it with people I know or am talking to. Ever since I started wearing my hat on a regular basis, I keep the brim down low to hide my eyes and avoid this.
17) If I do not know you, and you touch/grab my forearm in any situation, I immediately become upset. If I know you, touching/grabbing my forearm while I am STANDING will piss me off. If I am seated, laying down, whatever, you're good. If I am standing we're gonna have a problem.
That's a very abbreviated list, but you can see there's no real rhyme or reason to them. Some of them are fairly common things, even.
My world is very very different from yours. And much more scary. It's one hell of an intense experience though, and because of that, it's pretty fun too.
~A.
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