Primordial Chaos

Yeah, it's been almost a month since I've posted, but I was getting ready for finals and such, then just tried to relax for a few days after. My final grades still aren't posted, but I'm not even going to stress those till they are. I survived. I didn't even get a t-shirt, though.

There was some drama and shit started heading REALLY south around the last times I posted. It's all, for the most part, resolved. Everything that isn't I will deal with shortly.

Trying to get in the mood for summer classes, but still burnt out from spring. I have to be on my (literally) A game from this point forward. I've managed to wrap two dreams into one, but for it to work I have to impressive on paper. Not an issue. I'm not giving out details until later on. I just need to play some things super close to my chest right now, I can't be vulnerable right now. I don't want anyone's opinion on my goals and dreams, I don't want their doubts to become mine or to second guess myself. It's already happened once, I learned from that.

Yeah, I changed the layout of the blog, it's still dark like the corners of my mind, simple in its look as I am, and just overall kind of cool. Knowing me, I'll change the layout more often, just because. Possibly to reflect my latest mood.

I kind of can't wait until August, it will be stressful, but fun. I'm NOT talking about the new semester. This is one of those things I'm keeping close, but I'm so excited I can't keep my mouth shut. I've kept it shut for almost 6 months, not even slightly hinting at what I'm up to. Besides, provoking curiosity is fun and will make you think and wonder. Not telling!

I had nightmares all last night, and I know why, but not going into it. However, the strangest one was about this jazz song that killed people called "Jesus Christ Has Come Undone". I have NO IDEA where that came from, but it's a corner of my mind I'm now officially afraid of. :P

I'm going back to bed, cranky from lack of sleep. I'll post again soon enough, hopefully.

~A.